College Heartbreak Pt.2

Gosh, my posts are really depressing aren't they? But they will get better. This is sort of like a diary for me, but easier to keep and difficult to lose!
Where was I? Oh, right, turmoil began. the perfect ending to hear would be that we lived happily ever after, had 12 kids, grew old together, and so on. But, sadly, it's not. Most girls get clingy with their first love, and I certainly did! We started fighting continuously and, being the baby I am, I would cry every time. Which made him more angry. The first time we nearly broke up was when we had a fight that lasted 2 days, because he told me he's not over his ex. Of course that would make me paranoid. But I begged him not to, and he didn't. make a long story short, we had great times but in the end we broke up. he broke up with me IN PUBLIC, AT COLLEGE, AT the place where we first met. Great guy, right? I'm not over him yet. He made it worse by getting a new girlfriend not even a week after we broke up. It's been 5 months, and I'm not over him yet. If you want to know how our song went, here it is, by Skillet:
"Better Than Drugs"

Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you on these empty nights
Calm the ache, stop the shakes
You clear my mind
You're my escape
From this messed up place
'Cause you let me forget
You numb my pain

How can I tell you just all that you are
What you do to me

[Chorus:]
You're better than drugs
your love is like wine
Feel you comin' on so fast
Feel you comin' to get me high
You're better than drugs
Addicted for life
Feel you comin' on so fast
Feel you comin' on to get me high

Feel you when I'm restless
Feel you when I cannot cope
You're my addiction, my prescription, my antidote
You kill the poison
Ease the suffering
Calm the rage when I'm afraid
To feel again

How can I tell you just all that you are
What you do to me

[Chorus]

Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you on these empty nights
You're the strength of my life

[Chorus]

[Altro:]
Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you on these empty nights..
(feel you comin' on so fast,
feel you comin' on to get me high)
Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you come to get me high..
(feel you comin' on so fast,
feel you comin' on to get me high)

To get me high.....

Beautiful song, download it.
But even though I'm still sad, I have the best family, best friends, who help with everything. Like Niki, for example, who left her boyfriend in the room to come and sit with me for an hour, just to hold me as I sobbed. Music also helps me a lot. And so does God. In the famous words of Skillet (Of course),
There's something deep inside
That keeps my faith alive
When all you can do
Is hide from the fear
That's deep inside of you
Something, something, something
Something, something, something
To hold me close when I don't know
There's something deep inside
That keeps my faith alive...
That song's name is Collide.
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XOXOXOXO